all went REALLY WELL yesterday. i cannot say HOW WELL it went. cos it went like SOSOSOSOSO WELL. so yep. no worries. =/
today. it was a mental torture. on the way to vj. i was still pondering on whether i shd just make a u turn and go for the principal talk instead. however, something kept me gg. something. i dont know what. hm. the test was fine. the general ability one. eng and math was torturous. [?] however, i just did the test. glancing at the clock from time to time. hoping all will end soon. real soon. i wanted to go home. lie down and sleep. it was tiring. soon, after a whole 4 hours. all was over. dad came, fetched me. went home. saw the booklet that he kept his "notes" on, saying that my geog was my worst, my hist was the strongest. math was average. ENG AND CHI BORDERLINE. (gosh. my languages suck THAT bad?!) my science was... ehh. not stated. lit was above avg. MY FACIAL EXPRESSION : NEGATIVE OUTLOOK BUT IMPROVING. LOL. LOL. LOL. omg! at first i was like WHAT FACIAL EXPRESSION. then my dad gave me this really qian bian face and say " THR" lol! it was really funny. sigh. my results suck! i can just DREAM abt gg to double science, need not say, triple. sian. who knows? if i work hard... a MIRACLE may happen! :D yep. i'm aiming for a 4B plan thing. (as stated in the booklet)
the 4 compulsory. (el hmt math and a math) chem, bio, (i'm aiming for double science><) ss/geog,lit, (IS THR SS/HIST THEN LIT?!). yes that's all. :D
and so yep. need not think abt entering vj at all. firstly. the test was craply hard. secondly, i dont really wish to leave cedar just yet. :D
today. had tuition despite the splitting headache. time past really slow during tuition. when it ended, waited a full half an hour outside the house for my parents-reading and seeking shade from a mere. PATHETIC. slim, pole. church. i couldnt be bothered. honestly. i'm drifting away from God. sigh. i doubt His presence now, more and more. i was busy thinking other stuff. i prayed though, once, for Him to pull me back. I tried to listen and pay attention. the readers' voices werent making things any better. it grossed me out. i wouldnt be like that if not for the fact that i was so far from his embrace. i felt like crying. the headache got worse. my head felt like it was going to split. i'm gg nuts. bonkus.
tired, maybe. atheletic, acedemic aspects made me that way. physically from the sports. mentally from the studies. i dont study much. but the stress that had inflicted on me upon knowing my dreadful results.
what can i say???
o-h-m-y-g-o-s-h.
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